January was my worst blogging month EVER. (Well, the worst since I really committed to blogging in March 2008.) I just barely kept up with my 101 in 1001 goal to make sure to blog at least 20 times every month.

:::sigh:::

Really, I just have the winter blues. I’m sick of being stuck indoors. I’m sick of not feeling 100%. I’m sick of TV and of the computer and of the same ol’ stuff.

I want to be outside. I want to see green leaves on the trees and feel green grass beneath my feet. I want to enjoy warm weather and sunshine. I want to go to barbecues and weddings and graduation parties.

The other thing that is not helping is having to continue to wait to see whether the changes I referred to last week are, in fact, going to take place. Without knowing what’s going to happen, it makes it difficult to plan anything. And I’m nothing without a plan.

I am a PLANNER. I look forward. I concentrate on the future. I love to focus on what’s ahead.

So this state of limbo–this state of not knowing–it’s sooo not my thing. It’s an uncomfortable way of living for me. Still, I know it’s good for me. It’s good to have to spend some time outside of your comfort zone every once in a while. I just hope to be back in the “nice and comfy” area soon.

The bright side: We are in February. Yes, FEBRUARY!

Though I have to admit–I’m really not a fan of February. Although it is a short month, it always seems to be one of the longest. In my mind, February’s only redeeming qualities are my husband’s birthday, Tessa’s birthday, and the fact that it’s one month closer to April. And alright, I guess I could give it the Super Bowl in the “plus” column. But damn, that is it.

I think I need to find a way to keep myself busier. I’m not taking many photos these days because it’s cold and it’s dark and I like outdoors and natural light. I go to work, I go home. I (maybe) go to the gym. It’s boring. But my other problem is that winter just makes me feel lazy. I don’t want to do anything right now. All of this makes for a slow winter, that’s for sure.

Anyone else suffering from the winter blues? What are you doing to combat the depressing feelings that make it seem like spring will NEVER get here?

 

5 Responses to Scraping By

  1. I know exactly how you feel! I am just LAZY and don’t want to do anything!

    We don’t even get out to walk the dogs but a couple times a week because it’s so cold and nasty. I’ve been exercising inside doing the eliptical and some crunches and the Wii Fit, but it’s dreary and really hard to get going.

    I don’t have any advice, just that I’m totally there with you! If I were doing any blogging besides the photo blog, it would be slim pickins for the past month or so.

  2. Mrs. B says:

    Lazy doesn’t begin to describe how January/February make me feel.

    Don’t get too down on yourself though – hopefully the warm sun will be shining and you’ll be back to grilling out before you know it!

  3. etta says:

    While I, too, miss the sunshine, I’m always happy to see February. I may be biased, though, since my birthday is on the 5th. It’s always depressing to think that my b-day is six weeks after winter begins and six whole weeks before it ends. Boo.

    Oh, and in reference to the changes, I hope that things turn out well.

  4. Vanessa says:

    Hmmm, I know. I hate winter. I’m in a blogging rut too. There are huge changes going on for me right now (moved away, new job) but I don’t want to blog about them for confidentiality reasons. So I can’t blog about the big stuff and the small stuff just feels so unblogworthy! Humphy season.. can’t wait till Spring. As for those changes… I hope they go well and that you’ll reveal them to us soon… the others are too polite to say it but I think we’re all dying to know ;) seriously though, I hope it’s all good for you and Michael xxx

  5. I also hate this time of year. I hate the cold, thats why we moved to Florida. Thanks to a shitty economy we got to move back after just a month…yeah UGH!

    I’m also unmotivated to do ANY thing. I have no job, I am so tired of filling out application after application, I hate working out lately, and I’m stuck in the house ALL day. AND I live with my MIl and FIL. So yes, I understand.

    As for you, maybe this is a good time for you to “live in the moment”. Planning for the future is obviously a wonderful and productive way to live, but if you are always just planning for the future you miss whats happening today.

    I hope you have a fast and easy Feb!

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