Today is my due date. I would be 40 weeks pregnant today, but instead, I woke up snuggling my 1-week-old baby girl this morning.

Because I gave birth to Nora right at my 39-week mark, I never took a “39 week” pregnancy photo. My last pregnancy photo was at 38 weeks. Still, I thought it would be fun to document the due date by taking a photo, just as I have every week since January.


“40 Weeks” = 1 Week Postpartum

It is so amazing to look at Nora and know that just a week ago, she was curled up inside of me. She still spends a lot of her time with her feet and legs folded up in a way that looks totally uncomfortable, and it’s funny to think that those little legs, knees, and feet were poking me in the sides for so long. I look at the way she clasps her hands together and wonder if she did that when she was in the womb. I listen to her hiccups and remember what it was like to feel them from the inside.

And now she is here, and she is beautiful, and I cannot imagine life without her. I am happier than I have ever been. I love her so much it makes me cry. I can’t believe a week has already passed, and it actually breaks my heart to think about how fast she will grow. I know that every stage of babyhood/childhood has something to love about it, and I look forward to that–but it is so hard to know that she will never again be this small. It makes me ache. (I’m thinking this is an effect of my out-of-whack hormones, yes?)

OK, with tears in my eyes, I have to talk about something else before I start bawling!

One week after my lightning labor and delivery experience, I am feeling pretty good in terms of recovery. I am still suffering from some pretty annoying tailbone pain, but I’m hopeful that will be improving soon. Everything else seems to be going exceptionally well. I’ve never had much pain where my stitches are, in fact I never even needed an ice pack in the hospital. As with everything else regarding this pregnancy, I just can’t complain!

At my last doctor’s appointment on Thursday 9/9, I had gained a total of 26 lbs. Once we were home from the hospital, I weighed myself when I woke up on Tuesday morning, and I was down 14 lbs. When I weighed myself again on Thursday, I was down 19 lbs. I’m pretty happy with my 1-week-postpartum body, but things definitely have a way to go. I tried on my pre-pregnancy jeans the other day, and they actually buttoned–but were a bit too tight to wear comfortably. I’m in a really awkward stage right now, because I am too small for maternity clothes, but my pre-pregnancy pants just don’t fit yet. This first week, I’ve been able to get away with wearing all “comfy clothes,” but I do have the itch to wear REAL clothes again. So perhaps I will have to bust out the Bella Band again so I can wear my pre-pregnancy pants.

In other news, I can wear my wedding rings again! After I showered on Tuesday morning, I decided to fish them out of my drawer and see if they fit. Sure enough, they slid right back on my finger. Yay! It took me a few days to actually get used to wearing them again. I’d been without them since 33 weeks.

Not to get all emotional again, but Michael has to go back to work on Monday and I’m already dreading it. It has been so great to be home together as a family. And again, it’s another stage of this experience that is coming to an end already. And here I go, about to cry again… HORMONES ARE THE DEVIL.

Nora is doing beautifully–eating well, still sleeping a lot. I love when she spends a good bit of time with her eyes open. I just stare into those blue (I think?) eyes and talk to her. We are all getting about as much sleep as can be expected at this point. I would definitely welcome some longer stretches of sleep at night, but I also don’t really mind having the time with her in the middle of the night. You’d think that when you spend a good portion of the night awake, the days would seem so long–but as we progress through the day and night, living from feeding to feeding, the time just flies. Instead of being grateful to be able to fall into bed at the end of every day, I’m actually always a little sad for it to come to a close. Hormones. AGAIN.

With that, I’ll leave you with some photos from the last few days. LOVE.

Aunt Melissa and Uncle Andy came to meet Nora today. Aunt Melissa was pretty smitten! :)
All cleaned up to go to a wedding
 

The last five days have been both a whirlwind and an eternity. I can’t believe Nora is already nearing the one-week mark, but I also can’t believe that it was ONLY five days ago that I pushed her out into the world. It seems like she’s been in our lives forever, and I already can’t imagine not having her with us.

So how do we sum up the last five days? Well, there’s a lot to say, so excuse me while I babble on and show you about 500 pictures of our baby girl. Since I’m so behind, this is going to be the LONGEST POST EVER. I apologize in advance if I bore the crap out of you. But LOOK! Pretty pictures! (Hopefully that makes up for it?)

Mama and Nora, shortly after delivery

Following Nora’s birth, I was put on an IV drip of Pitocin to stimulate contractions in my uterus so that it would begin to return to its normal size. Because the hospital was so busy, we were able to hang out in our delivery room for quite a while before being transferred to the room where I would spend the remainder of my recovery days. But when I was moved, I had to do something they almost never have to do at the hospital–I had to share a room! I was wheeled into someone else’s room and had to share it with her for about three hours, at which time she was discharged and I was left with a private room (thank goodness!).

I had a really awesome stay in the hospital. Honestly, it was all due to my nurses–I loved every single one of them. Well, with the exception of my discharge nurse. She sucked. Thankfully, by that time, we were on our way out, so it didn’t much matter.

On Saturday, because Nora was born so early in the morning, I actually got several hours with her all on my own before we had anyone else come up to the hospital. That was really nice. Of course, my mom was there when she was born, and my in-laws stopped up shortly after, but everyone headed back home to go back to sleep and let me get some rest. I never did sleep (although exhausted, I think I was running on excitement and adrenaline), but it was still nice to have some quiet time.

My dad had left Virginia around 2:30 a.m., and he arrived at the hospital around 10:30. He was very happy to get his hands on his first granddaughter! :)

Throughout the afternoon, we had several visitors, including proud aunties Marie and Kara, and big cousin, Hunter.

Unfortunately, Uncle Trevor was away at drill for the National Guard, and Uncle Tyler had to work all day. But in the evening, Tyler and my dad came back up so he could meet Nora.

After that, everyone headed home, including Michael so he could get some rest (and tend to Tessa at home). I sent the baby to the nursery so I could get some sleep as well. I was surprised when I woke up to go to the restroom and saw that I had been sleeping for five hours without them bringing Nora in. Sure enough, a few minutes later the nurse wheeled her into the room saying she was hungry.

The nurse got me settled into feeding the baby, and as I sat there, I suddenly began to shake uncontrollably. It started with a chill that ran up my spine and quickly turned into teeth chattering. I pressed my call button and the nurse came in, whisked the baby back to the nursery, then came back to try to relieve my chills. She loaded me up with about six regular blankets, plus two heated blankets, heat packs, and turned the thermostat up. Still, I was shaking violently, which was tremendously uncomfortable. The nurse also repeatedly took my temperature, and soon enough, I was spiking a 102-degree fever. :( My chills finally subsided, and I was seen by a doctor who started me on IV antibiotics to treat an infection she suspected was beginning in my uterus. So that was some unexpected excitement in the middle of the night on Saturday/Sunday.

Throughout the rest of my hospital stay, I never did experience any other symptoms of infection, but I had to be on 24 hours of the IV antibiotics. Not a big deal, but it sucked to have the IV line back in my hand, since I had been so glad when they took it out on Saturday afternoon (after the Pitocin and fluids were done).

On Sunday, we had several more visitors including family and friends. Aunt Cristina drove home from college to meet her new niece…

…and a large group from Michael’s side of the family came as well.

At 1:00, the Bills game started, and we hosted my family (both brothers, Kara, Marie, Hunter, and my dad) in the room for a good portion of the game.

My dad hit the road to return to Virginia at around 3:00 p.m. It was too short of a stay, but he’ll be back in a few weeks for Tyler and Marie’s wedding, so we’ll get to see him again soon.

Sunday evening was quiet. Michael and I got to enjoy some family time with Nora, which was nice. I also trimmed the little bugger’s nails for the first time, since she had been clawing me with her daggers.

On Monday morning, I was told that I was going to be discharged since my fever/infection had not reared its ugly head again.

We had a relaxing morning in our room, and we got Nora dressed in clothes for the first time ever. I loved her little going home outfit! A few weeks ago, we went shopping and bought a little boy’s outfit and a little girl’s outfit for going home.

The TIGHTS. Oh my gosh, they put me over the edge. Too cute.

We were held up a bit by a few different things, none of which were helped by my shitty nurse, but we finally left the hospital around 2:30 p.m.

Ready to go!

Baby Nora slept the whole way home, and seemed to like the car. I sat in the back seat with her, of course. :)

Once home, things kind of changed for the worst, to be honest. First, Tessa was so freaked out by Nora that it was completely overwhelming for Michael and I. She wanted to be all over the baby, was whining incessantly, and generally being a pain in the ass. We knew to expect this, but still–things had been so much easier in the hospital!

My emotions hit me full force. I had been so excited to come home, and once we were here, all I wanted to do was go back. It sounds funny, but I was sad that the hospital part was over. I would think about my wonderful nurses and cry because I knew I would never see them again. All I can say is that hormones are evil bitches.

A few pics of Nora in her crib at home…

To add to my stress, Nora suddenly decided to stop eating. I had a little trouble getting her to latch on Monday morning (around 10 a.m.) while we were still in the hospital. She had been doing really well prior to that, so I didn’t think much of it, and a nurse was able to help me get her fed. Before we left the hospital, I called the lactation consultant to have her come help me, as she had told me beforehand that she could show me how to get Nora on the breast in a less painful way (I was SUPER sore on the right side). Well, even with the LC’s help, we couldn’t get her to wake enough to feed. The LC said that she just wasn’t hungry and to try again when we got home.

And well, I tried. And tried again. And again. And again.

Every time I put Nora into the feeding position and tried to get her to latch, she would scream bloody murder. And when I’d take her away, she’d settle right down and go back to sleep. I didn’t worry too much at first, but by 8 p.m., it had been 10 HOURS since my little one had eaten and I knew something wasn’t right. I was extremely frustrated that my daughter suddenly “did not want me” and I called the pediatrician’s after hours line.

The pedi on call suggested trying to cup feed Nora some formula to “take the edge off” her hunger. She said that Nora was likely OVER-hungry at this point, and because my milk hadn’t come in yet, she had grown frustrated and didn’t want to put the effort into nursing to get so little food. So we cup fed her formula, and I was able to get her to latch for a while. We thought everything was looking up.

But as the night (and middle of the night) wore on, she became increasingly agitated with breastfeeding and all we could do was give her the cup. My milk did end up coming in the middle of the night–the pedi had also suggested trying to pump, and I was suddenly able to get a really good amount pumped. Still, Nora wouldn’t take the breast–only the breast milk from the cup.

The pediatrician’s office called first thing on Tuesday morning to see how the overnight had gone, and when I said it had been pretty terrible, they told me they wanted us to come in later that morning.

At the doctor’s office, Nora was weighed. At birth, she was 6 lbs., 10 oz. At discharge from the hospital, she was 6 lbs., 1 oz. On Tuesday, she was 5 lbs., 15 oz.

Our appointment was with the nurse practitioner, and she was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. She watched as I tried to feed Nora and saw how Nora was reacting. She went and got a couple bottles of formula, had me feed a little bit to Nora, and then asked me to try breastfeeding again. She showed me a different way to get her latched so she would likely get more milk, and therefore be more satisfied. Sure enough, the little one latched right on.

The nurse practitioner told us to keep cup feeding her to take the edge off at the beginning of the feeding, then see how she’d do with the new way to latch. She said they wanted us to come back the next day (Wednesday) to see how things were going and see the pediatrician.

Well, guess what? We got home and never had to go back to cup feeding. Nora suddenly decided to become a breastfeeding champion again, and we’ve been doing well ever since.

When we went back to the pediatrician yesterday, Nora’s weight was up to 6 lbs., 4 oz. Little one gained FIVE OUNCES in just 24 hours!! The pediatrician actually laughed because it was such an awesome gain. The pedi was able to give us some extra reassurance that everything was normal and we were doing fine.

Also, Tessa has been making huge strides. She is SO MUCH BETTER now than she was when we first got home. I was honestly freaking out inside on that first day, thinking there was no way she was ever going to adjust, but I was wrong. She is doing beautifully, and although she still has her moments (mostly when Nora is crying), she is gentle and totally fine around the baby. In fact, check out this photo of the four of us snuggling in bed yesterday morning…

It’s such a relief.

The sleep deprivation has been a little bit of a challenge, but it’s actually way better than I expected it to be. I guess I can handle living with less sleep than I thought I could. We’ll see how it goes over the next few weeks, though, as I know it has only been a few days at this point.

We’ve also been able to get out of the house, which is nice. We’ve run a few errands each day, and this morning, we actually went out to breakfast.

All in all, we’re doing really well at home now. We love this little girl so much that it hurts. It’s incredible how you can develop a bond like that in such a short period of time. I just want to hold, snuggle, hug and kiss her all of the time. I love my life.

OK, I’ll finally shut up now, and leave you with a few more photos of our little one. We couldn’t be more proud. :)

P.S. For those who have been asking… nursery reveal will be coming (hopefully) very soon. Also, I’ll be posting about the winner of the Heather Drive Baby Pool! Stay tuned. :)

 

Nora’s entrance into the world was an exciting one. Obviously that’s true for every baby, but Nora came into our lives in a way that I never imagined.

I posted on Friday about how I was disappointed that nothing was really happening in terms of labor. I had been experiencing some Braxton Hicks for sure, but it never progressed beyond that.

What was weird is that during the day on Friday, both Michael and I had expressed a “feeling” that we would somehow end up with a 9/11 baby. When I left work that day, I felt like I wasn’t going to be back, so I actually stayed an hour late to wrap up some things just in case.

When we got home, we went on a nice 2-mile walk. Then, we made bourbon chicken for dinner (a bit spicy!). Since I had worked late and we had walked before dinner, we didn’t sit down to eat until 8:30ish. After dinner and clean-up, we settled onto the couch for the evening. We decided to watch a DVRed episode of House (we STILL have a few episodes to watch from the end of last season–oops!). As we watched, I received texts from one of my cousins and one of my girlfriends, asking how I was feeling. I responded to them at 9:55 and 9:56 p.m., telling them that I had been having Braxton Hicks for two days, but that they kept going away! No news to report.

Right around 10 p.m., I felt this cramping in my lower abdomen. It honestly felt like diarrhea cramps, so I wasn’t sure what to make of it. Still, it got my attention enough to make me look at the clock, and when I felt another one 8 minutes later, I started to wonder. By 11 p.m., I had experienced several more of the cramps, and they had grown closer together. Michael and I started to think that this was probably the real thing.

I was not entirely convinced, though, so we decided to wait it out longer. I brought up Contraction Master on the computer, and spent some time tracking these “cramps.” Sure enough, they were coming at 3-4 minute intervals.

Initially, I wanted to try to labor at home as long as possible, so I suggested that we go lie in bed and try to get some rest. Once I was lying down, however, I realized that the contractions were even more uncomfortable, so I got back up. Also, we started to discuss calling our parents–my dad wanted to drive up from Virginia right away, so I wanted to give him as much notice as possible. The problem was that I didn’t want him to start driving until I had my labor “confirmed” at the hospital. So, essentially just for my dad’s sake, we decided to get ready to head to the hospital.

Still, we took our merry time. We both showered, I gave Michael a haircut (seriously–between contractions!), we finished packing, etc. At a little after 1:00 a.m., Michael had packed up the car and we were ready to leave.


Hospital Bound from Heather K on Vimeo.

After parking and getting up to the L&D ward, then getting signed in (The lady at the desk was S-L-O-W. Helloooo, I’m in labor, here!), by the time we got settled into triage, it was probably close to 1:45. I was hooked up to monitors and had my vitals taken, and the nurse told me that a doctor would be in soon to check me.

As we waited, I called my dad to let him know that while I hadn’t been checked yet, we were pretty damn sure that this was the real thing. My contractions had been getting stronger and stronger. The call history on my cell phone shows that I made that call at 2:14 a.m. As I was talking to my dad, I felt a warm gush and said, “Um, I think my water just broke!” I told my dad to hit the road.

A minute later, a doctor poked her head in my curtain and said, “Did I just hear you say your water broke?” I told her yes, so she said she would check me. When she did, she told me that I was already at 5 cm. I was so happy to hear that I was making good progress. However, with the broken water came contractions that had heavily increased in intensity. Instead of being able to easily manage them with breathing techniques, I was suddenly gripping the sides of the bed and writhing in agony through every single one of them. I wanted so badly for them to get me into a real room so that I could use a birthing ball, walk around, and possibly get into the tub. Unfortunately, the L&D ward was extremely busy, and they were having trouble clearing people out of rooms fast enough–they didn’t have a room to get me into!

The doctor came in and asked me if I’d be wanting an epidural. I told her I wasn’t really sure, but after a few more contractions, I said yes. She said they’d get my IV started in triage, then have the anesthesiologist meet me in my room when I was moved.

It seemed like eternity was passing, and things were moving so slowly. A nurse did come and start an IV line in my hand, but didn’t hook it up to any fluids. Meanwhile, I was moaning and groaning in horrendous pain, and started to find that I had barely any time between contractions. The doctor and nurses must’ve noticed, because next thing I know, the doctor is standing over me saying she’s going to check me again. This was sometime before 3:00 a.m. She said, “Heather, I think the reason you’re in so much pain is because you’re about to have a baby.” She checked me, and I was 8 cm.

I knew at that point that there was no way I’d be getting an epidural. I said as much to the doctor, and she said, “Well, we’ll see. We’ll call anesthesiology and they’ll see what they can do.” Even in my state, I knew she was a lying liar.

Because I was moving along so fast, they finally came in to get me to move me to an L&D room. I remember getting wheeled down the hall just grunting and whining because the pain was unbearable. They got me into the room and I remember looking up at the doctor and nurses and just BEGGING them to help me. I was saying things like “Oh my God, I’m going to die!” and “Someone just knock me out!” Looking back, the things coming out of my mouth were pretty hilarious. I begged them to give me something in my IV, at least to “take the edge off,” but they said that I was so far along that anything they gave me could potentially affect the baby. Instead of giving me the drugs, they simply kept telling me that I could do this.

Shortly after getting into the room, they checked me again and I was 9.5 cm. She told me that if I started to feel pressure, I could start pushing. Sure enough, I felt tremendous pressure, so with my next contraction, I started to push.

Meanwhile, my mom was making her way to the hospital, taking her merry time as she thought that there was plenty of it! Later, she told me that her guest pass said she had signed in at 3:18 a.m. In the middle of pushing, a nurse came to me and told me my mom was there and asked if it was OK to let her in. I said yes and my mom walked into the room when the baby was crowning.

I pushed and screamed and pushed and screamed and soon enough, they were pulling my baby out and holding it up. The way they were holding the baby, I had a perfect view of the area between the legs, and I knew right away it was a girl. But I think it was my mom who first said out loud, “IT’S A GIRL!” We all cried a little and it was overall an amazing feeling. Honestly, though, the most amazing feeling was knowing that the baby was out. My pain immediately subsided. It’s incredible how that works.

Nora Grace was born at 3:29 a.m.


Nora – Brand New! from Heather K on Vimeo.

If you’re keeping score–contractions started at 10 p.m. Left the house at 1 a.m. Settled into triage around 1:45 a.m. Water broke and dilated to 5 cm around 2:15 a.m. Baby was born at 3:29 a.m. In other words, I went from 5-10 cm and pushed a baby out in a little over an hour.

Whoa.

In the end, I did not have a drop of drugs, which I never expected to do. When people would ask me what my plan was, I’d tell them that I was just going to go with the flow and see how things happened, but I was not at all opposed to the idea of an epidural and figured that I’d likely end up with one. I never imagined that I’d be one of those women who progressed so fast that I wouldn’t even have the option!

I give major credit to all of the women who choose to go natural, and for those who do so while withstanding much longer labors. It was the most painful, hardest thing I have ever done and mine was so, so short! I told Michael afterward that it felt like someone was stabbing me in the abdomen with 1,000 knives. Or slowly and surely ripping out my insides. Neither one sounds very pleasant, does it?

The doctor I had been dealing with in triage was (I believe) a resident. She was the one who started the process of delivering my baby, simply because the on-call doctor from my practice was in another birth. However, my doctor did make it into the room shortly after I started pushing, and he was a tremendous help in delivering Nora. Anyway, because things happened so fast and he came in at the last minute, he didn’t know much about me at all. Afterward, he asked me what number baby this was for me. Imagine his surprise when I said Nora is my first! Everyone was joking that next time, I better head to the hospital after my very first contraction!

I am so, so, SO glad we left for the hospital when we did. I shudder to think what may have happened if we had waited it out longer.

At the end of the day, I am so grateful for my birth experience and wouldn’t have it any other way. Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am, and believe me, I know.

This little face makes me feel oh so lucky. And so totally blessed.

 

Nora Grace
September 11, 2010
3:29 a.m.
6 lbs., 10 oz.
20 inches

More to come.
For now, all there is to know is that we are all healthy, happy, and in love.

 

Well, since we’re getting so close to the end now, I figured I’d do a mid-week update instead of waiting for Monday to roll around to do my regular pregnancy post. I’m actually 39 weeks on Saturday/Sunday, so we’re a bit more than 38.75, but… humor me.

Last night, my body decided to play tricks on me!

First, some TMI-type stuff, so SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU HATE IT. You’ve been warned! I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday morning, and the latest is that I’m 2 cm, and she went ahead and “swept the membranes” for me to try to get things moving along. I spent the whole day not feeling much different–no real cramps or anything, so I figured it hadn’t really worked.

After work last night, we went on a walk. When we got back, I started to feel these crazy tightening sensations across my belly, and a lot of pressure in my lower abdomen. After a little while of it, I said to Michael, “I’m pretty sure these are contractions!” My belly was rock hard, and they seemed to come and go. And even though a few of them were uncomfortable enough to take my breath away, they weren’t painful enough for me to feel like I could time them in any way. This lasted through making, eating, and cleaning up dinner, but then they seemed to subside. I still had some tightening in my belly throughout the evening, and was still feeling some additional pressure in my pelvis, but… nothing ever came of it.

FALSE ALARM, damn it. I guess they were just strong Braxton Hicks?

And so we continue to wait.

Other results from the appointment–My doctor is still a bit concerned about my blood pressure. It wasn’t terribly high, she had it marked down on the chart as 128/92, I believe. But I guess the second number is higher than they like to see it, and for her, she’s looking more at the “trend” in my blood pressure than the actual numbers themselves. Each week, the blood pressure just creeps higher and higher, so she’s concerned about “late-gestation hypertension.” I don’t have any signs that would indicate pre-eclampsia, so it’s just the blood pressure for now.

In addition, I am continuing to measure small. This first became a concern when I was 30 weeks pregnant and started to fall behind in my belly measurements. At the time, I was only measuring 1 cm behind, but because my belly hadn’t grown since my previous appointment, my doctor decided to send us in for a growth ultrasound to check everything and the fluid levels. Everything turned out to be fine, with the baby measuring in the 58th percentile on the growth charts.

Fast forward to almost-39-weeks pregnant, though, and it’s an issue again. At this point, I should be measuring in at 39 cm (1 cm for every week you are pregnant), but I am only measuring 35 cm. She said that 4 cm is a pretty big deal, so she is sending us for yet another growth ultrasound. We scheduled it for Tuesday, hoping that I’ll go into labor before then and we won’t actually have to go through with it. We’ll do whatever we have to do, obviously, but ultrasounds cost us $50/pop so we’d rather not have to! Plus, it sounds like my doctor is just being overly cautious (which I really do appreciate), because she said that more than likely, the baby has just descended down into the pelvis a bit, causing him/her to measure smaller than he/she really is. She also seems to think that I have a longer-than-average torso, so I’m just “hiding” the baby well.

Now, to the most interesting part… she said that when we have my appointment next week (on Wednesday), we will discuss possible induction for Thursday, September 16. AHHHHH! I was not expecting that at all, so I was a bit taken back by it. But, she said that if my blood pressure continues to creep up, and depending on the results of the growth ultrasound on Tuesday… we will have to evaluate the risks of evicting the baby (which will be very, very small since I’ll be only a few days shy of 40 weeks) versus the risks of leaving him/her in. Soooo… it sounds like, if I don’t go into labor on my own before then, we could very well be having a baby next Thursday.

Makes things a bit more real, doesn’t it? To have an end in sight?

Either way, it doesn’t sound like she’s likely to let me go too far past my due date, so we are definitely getting close. I’m still hoping to avoid induction, so I’m continuing to send my baby lots of “come on out” vibes.

We’ll see what happens, but I wanted to post this on the off chance that I don’t make it until Monday! *fingers crossed*

I’M GOING TO BE A MOMMY SOON! :)